Bassmama
05-10-05, 02:20PM
You came to me in my dreams again last night. It's the same old thing every time- I'm back to being 24 again & I stop at the gas station & you are there, and after you leave, I'm told that you are getting married in 2 days, but in my dream, I spend your wedding day trying to find out where you're getting married so I can STOP YOU! **I** am supposed to be your bride, NOT HER! My heart keeps breaking as I search.
I go to the little house you lived in when we were in high school & so much in love, but you're not there, and I try all the local churches one by one & every restaurant & hall that everyone suggest that you may be at, but you're not there, either.
Then I wake up and find out that I'm 54 now and haven't seen you in about 20 years- since you told me that you loved BOTH your wife and me and wanted us both, and I walked out of your life. I have been trying to get you out of my life and dreams ever since.
I really should have searched and stopped your wedding- but I'd have stood in the back of the church and cried instead as you married her those many years ago.
PLEASE GET OUT OF MY DREAMS!!!!! IT HURTS TOO FUCKING MUCH!
I go to the little house you lived in when we were in high school & so much in love, but you're not there, and I try all the local churches one by one & every restaurant & hall that everyone suggest that you may be at, but you're not there, either.
Then I wake up and find out that I'm 54 now and haven't seen you in about 20 years- since you told me that you loved BOTH your wife and me and wanted us both, and I walked out of your life. I have been trying to get you out of my life and dreams ever since.
I really should have searched and stopped your wedding- but I'd have stood in the back of the church and cried instead as you married her those many years ago.
PLEASE GET OUT OF MY DREAMS!!!!! IT HURTS TOO FUCKING MUCH!